It's like the most I can do to create a new station on Pandora

Cyclical motion, not the worst I could imagine but not desirable in the least. I'd like to think I was constantly moving upward but I can't fool even the newest of acquaintances at the moment. So, I will own it. My life is facing a decline unless I make some vigorous conscious changes.
I am still having sporadic thoughts of slight genius inspired by something I'm able to focus my mind on for half a minute. As they come in I am trying to make note of a few a day.
Wow. I'm so bummed about the way things are going I don't think I have it in me to be less vague about it.
I've got my chin up. I'm chipping away at this day by day.